A couple months ago, I got tired of singing worship songs as I once did. Just singing whatever words were in them for the sake of the song. Do I really mean everything I sing? I sing so much of other people's words. I wanted God to change me. In this song in particular, it angered me that I would sing "break my heart" if I didn't really mean it, so I prayed for God to break my heart for what breaks His. A little scary. What did I expect? I had no idea.
Now, I do.
One of Ben's mentors Thomas Young tragically ended his own life last Friday. I've been grieving for him like no one I've ever grieved before, and I never even met the man. I knew him only through Ben. Since Thomas' death, I've been aching for the people he left behind. So many "question marks floating around the room" as evangelist Kelly Green put it so well at his funeral today. And yet, to die is gain.
I'm forever changed. I will continue to pray for the people affected by this tragedy and remember that God doesn't always give answers. He didn't even give His son an anwer when he asked for an other way than the cross. The 'human condition' as my mom calls it is desperately crying... Hosanna~ "save now!"
Here's my heart, Lord... broken.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
a WAY in a Manger!
I needed a little something to cheer me up tonight. So I broke out the glue gun, and Christopher and I had a little advent fun. We made this manger scene out of stuff we had around the house. We bought nothing, and will need nothing more than another glue stick before we finish. We made the stable, manger bed, and angel. Later this weekend we'll make the Mary, Joseph and Baby figures (and maybe a camel). We're trying to keep it as biblically accurate as possible. Christopher made a scroll on the top that quotes Luke 2:14 "Glory to God in the highest, And on earth peace among men with whom He is pleased." in beautiful lettering. He traced the animals out of felt- so proud of his sketching of late. We won't decorate with much more than this this Christmas. Hopefully, this creation will remind us for years to come of the true meaning of this advent season. I want it also to remind us of His second coming, so that we will prepare ourselves, like a bride for her wedding day, to be ready for our JESUS.
Emmanuel- God is with us!!!
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